“I couldn’t help but doubt myself, doubt my own character,” said Indian cricketer K L Rahul as he reflected on the storm triggered by his and Hardik Pandya’s sexist comments on a TV show.
Rahul and India teammate Pandya were provisionally suspended by the BCCI for their loose talk on women on the show. The Committee of Administrators (COA) handed the inquiry into the matter to the Supreme Court-appointed BCCI Ombudsman and a decision is still awaited.
Weeks away from his 27th birthday, Rahul spoke about what he endured after he was sent back before the ODI series in Australia.
“…it was hard as I am not used to people disliking me. For the first one week or 10 days, I couldn’t help but doubt myself, doubt my own character. The hardest thing was to know whether actually you are a bad person, when so much has been written about you,” Rahul told ‘India Today’.
It was a time when Rahul briefly cut himself off socially as he was “scared to face” uncomfortable questions from outsiders.
“I was quite honestly scared to step out as I wasn’t ready. If somebody would ask questions, I didn’t know what I would answer. I would go for practice, come back home and be on my playstation as I wasn’t simply ready to face people,” the eloquent batsman said.
Rahul admitted that the glamour and razzmatazz that surrounds the Indian team has briefly left him disconnected with his roots and his well-wishers.
However, he was thankful to the Indian team members and the support staff, who were there during his trying times.